Surviving Prom

Hrm,

So, I went to her prom today. It went pretty well. I think I have finally completely relegated my feelings for her to the realm of platonicness, and tonite was the test - I passed. The prom itself was pretty much a carbon copy of my own prom last year, right down to the food. The only thing that made it slightly crapper was that the DJ didn't put a smattering of Grunge and Metal in towards the end of the night. That was great last year, we basically turned the dancefloor into a mosh pit, and half the people left on the spot.

We then headed to the after party. This is where the evening went downhill.

I dont know what you people think about this, but I've always felt that we as human beings are constantly experencing positive and negative energies from the various elements of our lives. Some people would call it "vibes," it's that inexplicable feeling of either positive or negative energy that a person, place or situation radiates.

Anyway, we get to the after party, and I have havent felt such a negative vibe in a long time. I wasnt sure if it was actually negative so much as indifferent, but it wasnt good regardless. This "party" was actually more of a "sit around." That is, a bunch of people sitting around drinking, with no real socialization or "partying" happening. You had a bunch of people literally sitting around and doing nothing, they were just sitting there drinking. I mean, when I went to Nadia's birthday party, it was awesome, bc i felt a really positive vibe, and there was like this energy bouncing off everyone, and I think it really fostered my ability to interact with people. Alternately, this was just dead. There were like 50 people sitting in a guys back yard and doing nothing!!

I decided to bail early, I had originally planned to be there til about 3am, but left at 130. I just didnt want to feed into that negativity. I had a good time otherwise, but I just realized that that whole highschool, party to think were cool scene is not my thing. Never was, but I think I was feeling like I owed it to myself to at least try it more than i did in HS. That was a wee bit of a mistake.