If there is a god, this is the biggest sign he's ever given me

Holy Crap,

I dont think ive felt this good in a ridiculously long time, if ever. I am somewhere near euphoric I am feeling so damn good. Its a great feeling, especially due to the fact that there is no crushing self doubt or insecurity counterpointing what im feeling. Ive come to realize that the "happiness" i was feeling before was hollow, as it was never really pure, I was always doubting it, there was always something that incumbered me. But today, I dunno, Im feeling really happy, and i feel like myself. I think i wove myself into my own inhibitions and created this fear of social interaction that was really consuming, and while it may have taken some syrup of a beer to break that, I think its gone. Im just feeling really awesome right now, my only regret is not doing this earlier.

Adding to this is the fact that I found out I may be on the short list for the third Team Leader at Ontarioplace. This is very cool, and almost unheard of for someone in their first season such as myself. Everything is pure speculation at this point, but it would be cool if i got it.