Hallucinatin'

I wouldn't normally blog this type of thing, but I find it so utterly bizzare that I want to, so I am. I've been sick for a couple of days, and whatever the hell it is that I have has been really disrupting my sleep patterns. It's almost like when I go to bed, my mind gets kicked into overdrive. For a few nights, it was just similar to having ADD (i suppose), but last night was very different.

I guess the best way to describe it was a series of conversations occuring simultaneously, and all on the same topic. It wasn't a bunch of collective voices all saying things, but instead very specific conversations between individuals, and they all seemed to be about the same thing. I recognized some of the voices, but some were completely foriegn to me.

What was equally strange was that the conversations were actually physically manifested in some sort of 3d construction that I could see in my head. I think it looked like a tree. There seemed to be two central sort of "hubs", where all the conversations were rooted in, and than each individual discussion was manifested in a sort of "branch" that seemed to run between the two hubs. These branches also seemed to be of different heights - the ones closer to the "top" of the tree, or whatever the hell it was, were clearer to me, whereas there were branches farther away from me that I couldn't hear at all.

Ok, I imagine at this point I have probably freaked you out, but I swear I'm fine. You forget, this is coming from the man who once, in a fever induced hallucinogenic state, mistook his mother for Jesus, so this is nothing. However, it did grant me a strange sense of resolve, for the first time ever, it was like what I needed to do was spelt out plainly to me, and it was quite helpful.