Down

I hate feeling down, yet I seem to be stuck in this pattern of quazi-depression. I seem to only be able to get to a certian level or happiness/distraction/drunkenness, and then I fall backwards. Its like one step forwards, two back repeated infinitely.

I think part of the problem is that for some reason I've been very antisocial lately. What annoys me is that I dont want to be antisocial, it just kind of happens. Its also extremely frustrating, Im finally at a point where I both want to, and am capable of going out and doing things, yet for whatever reason I'm not. All I know is that I want to break this pattern, I just dont know how.

Nurr...

Why is it I can trust and confide in the one person that social stereotypes and preconceived notions say i shouldnt be able to? Bc the persons involved are awesome!

Pissed Off

Recipie for a great day

1) Show up at Radio Glendon, but have your key not work.

2) Go to class, but for some reason be unable to stay awake.

3) Have your prof collect the homework that youve done up until this week, but didnt do this week because he's never collected it before.

4) Make sure MSN isnt working for some reason

5) Make sure the only edible food in your house is some questionable chili and a cucumber

6) Have your brother play Taking Back Sunday just loud enough as to prevent it from causing an annoyance to anyone but me as I sit in my room trying to think

It May Be Buckle Down Time

It's the midway point of October, and I sat down to do my first actual reading today. Is that bad?

I'm not sure about this english grammar class. Its pretty heavy, and I really dont want to deal with it. Its a requisite of the english program, so I have to do it, but I'm not enjoying it. We shal see what happens.

I had a pretty awesome 19th, thank you to everyone who contributed in whatever way you did. Though I must say, riding the subway drunk is far more fun than I thought it would be.

It turns out that doing a radio show is far more feel than anything else. Ive done three shows this year, and I would label all as greater successes than any show I did last year.

People should have emailed me things, they didnt. I am annoyed, its very unprofessional.

I've bought a lot of music in the last few weeks. Actually, Ive bought a lot of stuff in general in the last few weeks. But music especially. Latest purchase was k-os' new album. Its pretty damn good.

Cheers

Joe