I feel Emo for some reason

Ugh,

I don't know why I'm blogging something this personal, I don't want attention or sympathy, I just feel like I owe it to myself, or her, to write what I'm thinking at this moment.

So, a lot of what I was feeling came to a head last night, over an MSN conversation that went for nearly 2 hours. I learned a lot in that time, things I didn't even consider, things so intense that it is almost beyond my comprehension. There was far more underlying than I ever could have thought. The result of this is some level of new depth to our "relationship" - if that's what you call it.

It was weird, because I approached the situation trying to find answers for my own feelings, mainly why she was always cryptic - neither requiting nor rejecting my advances. However, as the night went on, and I learned more and more, I felt my feelings change almost entirely. I feel now like I owe it to her to be around, I cant really explain it without divulging some very personal stuff that I'm not at liberty to repeat. Needless to say though, this is definitely going to change our personal dynamics, I dont know in what way, but all I know now is that I need to be there for her rather than trying to make her want to be with me.

Like Nadia says, no one reads this anyway, this is just my therapy